hello! (: i haven't updated in ages. i'm feeling really really high right now. i'm overly excited and smiley cos of some super super exciting event. [inside joke. cher :D]
this is supposedly a thank you/tribute post. so yep. (:
I'D LIKE TO SAY A BIG THANK YOU TO EVERYONE FOR MAKING MY BIRTHDAY SUCH AN ENJOYABLE ONE!especially:
CHER the love of my life (: for the BIG BEAUTIFUL not to mention fattening cake that also happened to caused the most fabulous cake fight which was so much fun and for always always being there and being such a wonderful partner. [well, most of the time]
eugeNA (: aren't you happy i put your full name instead of NANA. for being crazily noisy and always being understanding (:
cheryl (: for being there whenever i need you and being so supportive
charis (: for that beautiful love spell present and the yummy and fattening chocolate cake. blowing candles was so much fun! too bad there wasn't any leftovers for a cake fight!
jas/amina/JERRY (: for being my crapping partner and coming up with such crazy antics to brighten my day a whole lot. and i swear you looked really cute with cake on your face
trish (: for being so COURAGEOUS and standing up for all of us. i bet you can be a politician next time la
liangHUI my funkywoman. (: for being so spastic and those two lovely smses (: (: (: i really love love love that we are both in it together.
iris SIOW (: for being nutty and so cute. coffin target changed xP xP xP choral night is going to be oh-so fab! for that sms at 12am!
chewan and leechin for the beautifully
RED wrapped present and RED dars bar and absolutely funkayyy soap. its so cute. chewan: its been so long since i've talked to you. i miss you!!!!!
sheena my POOPOO for the big heavy pink box of jellies which i've finished half of. of course i had alot of help from cheryl and nana and cher and jas and trish and charis, but that's besides the point. for always being such a fabulous friend and of course i haven't formally thanked you for the presents during last year's choral night and the cdrama night. SEE, i never forgot!
adeline my LOVELLAYYY balllet bestie for being such a wonderful partner since grade 2 and of course your beautiful charmed bracelet and wonderful note that was so sweet.
vaNESSA for the RED card and the kachang putay chocolate thingy which is so cute. (: for being such a great friend making tuition such a exciting place. outing is exciting
yukina for the chocolates (: and for being so super sweet
jialing for being always getting so high with me during dance and for never ever failing to brighten up my day.
CHUA hernhern for being so crazy and so fun to be with. jiayou for syf. (:
saRAHHHHH for always being there even though we haven't talked in ages for sharing wonderful songs and for being so fun to be with during ballet! i have loads of fab pics to share with you! (: (:
liling for your testimonial and being such a great friend for these 8 years [or more] for all the time we had these 3 syfs (:
sharlene for being such a fab friend for 8 years now. for always understanding and being there. i definitely miss the times where we were so close. tsk. you owe me a letter!
yuanyi and mabel, my table partners! for my very early present for being such a great fun sitting with for helping me with things that i don't understand for singing and crapping with me. (: POWDERFUL FLYING CAO CHICKENS
not forgetting those who wished me happy birthday via sms through friendster and my blog or by word of mouth, fellow BEE-BEEEEEEHIANG, loretta (: (: (:, zhenping, timothy kek, quanqi, sophia [sorry i forgot your number!], STUMMMPEENEEEE, eesuan, gregory, timothy chan, dorothy, HUIXIAN (: (: (: (: (:, junheng, bojia my indian friend, chentian, shitong, sharlene, liyew, zhen, lulu, yiyi, zhong lao ._. , victoria, haiwei
i hope i didn't miss anyone out! (: i think i'm done!
Get into the groove boy you've got to prove your love to me
Played on the radio as we drove down south to see our families
You were lying there in the passenger chair sound asleep
I could recall a time when evenings were bright and thick with love
And all the city streets and their lights they were so mysterious
Oh life it was so wonderful it would shine just like fire
How we sat on the backs of our cars and laughed into the morning
I thought you'd come and go
I never thought you would stay
And I'm sorry if I tried to push you away
But the edges they fold and you suddenly find you are buried beneath
A blanket of snow you had no idea was even falling
Now you're sitting on a ouch inside your home feeling cold
Mothing is clear, all your thoughts they have become so hard to find
With a question mark always slumped at the end of these awkward lines
All the simple words we loved to speak are no longer audible
And I never thought with you and I this would be possible
I can feel the world coming apart
And I need you by my side with your delicate heart
So please don't leave me no don't you run
Don't be frightened by the storm so bold and brave
Just let it rain
sometimes its the expectations that hurt all of us, that make us seem so helpless and useless. i really wonder why there are stupid expectations anyway. those things that he said doesn't bother me anymore, its funny, i used to be so sensitive. but after so many times of dishing out how i feel and being stabbed back in return, i really think that i'm numbed. those words really really hurt me at that time, but now i realised i don't care anymore. but somehow at the back of my mind i know what i have to do, what i must do to, perhaps, redeem myself. change? as someone said, everyone needs time but really why doesn't some people get it. after so long and some much tears, it just doesn't seem to happen. we are merely 14 but yet we are expected to know so much, sometimes its really obvious, you say you don't mean it that way, but you obviously do. is it an assumption? you know i think you've hurt all of us in different ways and even though some of us choose to stay strong, there is always a prick of hurt and disappointment, not everything is abt being childish you know.
i think you really shouldn't judge us until you know us better. of course first impressions count, but have you ever wondered whether your first impression is wrong, that maybe we are better, strong and more deserving than you initially thought us to be. perhaps the cold attitude was part of a plan to make us bond. but i don't think it really works that way. how can you expect us to gel when we are like mere strangers. everyone needs time. its ironic when you want us to be so perfect when its so impossible cos we've got no basis to follow