to think i even cared on advising you in the first place. and i thought you really wanted to change. how fake can you get. and now you go crying to your so-called darling. argh. its fvcking disgusting okay. its like we wrote that whole essay to HELP you. how nice of you to forget everything we've done to help you. everything that we did for you. everything little bit of something called friendship. i think she was very nice not to put your name. its not as if your reputation isn't bad enough. don't you dare say i didn't try to save our friendship, if it even exsisted in the first place. i already tried to be very objective abt my comments and whatever i blog. but now i don't care. i really don't. i'm vengeful. whatever. i just can't stand how fake and pathetic you can get. as he said, i already tried to do whatever i can to help you. and you were only bothered to defend yourself. i think that freaking note was damn fake. and after this all, i can't believe i ever thought you were serious abt it. i guess my previous impression was correct. i even bothered to reflect on how i treated you yesterday. did you realised i came to school nice today. you are making yourself cheap. just look around. look at how others see you. wth did you even try to get the best of both worlds. you are trying to salvage your friends and your freaking boyfriend. you can't get your cake and eat it. if you aren't even sincere abt anything, WTF did you even bother to write the note. i wasn't even planning to write anything. until cheryl did. i followed cos i had alot of things to trash out. i could have jolly well not written a word and trashed the paper, like i never seen it in my life. but i didn't. so i guess whatever words of concern and whatever heart to heart talks we had meant nothing more than air. i can't imagine how everything i thought meant something has turned to nothing. seriously, i've told myself many times that it true and its still there. i guess not. thanks for finally making me realised how gullible and dumb i've been. thanks alot and have a good life